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Ebony
Boy with Gift of Gold
Deep within this meditation I found myself in a dark
forest. Among the shadows, I could see a boy coming
toward me and in his hands was a nugget of gold.
A present for me.
Later, when trying to figure out what could be going
on here, I remembered the discussions I have read by
many people of the shadow and the importance of acknowledging
and bringing forth through ritual the forces of one’s
dark interior. I had always assumed that the shadow
contained memories and feelings of shame, guilt, rage—those
things we keep buried and don’t want others to
see, fearful that if visible everyone I met at the supermarket
would point and say: “Oh, you aren’t
a very nice person at all!”
Then I started to read about this subject in a more
directed way and came across:
“If you bring forth what is within you, what
you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth
what is within you, what you do not bring forth will
destroy you.”
— Gnostic Gospels by Elaine Pagels words attributed
to Jesus in the Gospel of Thomas
About six months after I had completed
this painting, I found the following words in a book
by Robert Johnson:
“Jung warned us that it would not be too difficult
to get the skeletons out of the closet from a patient
in analysis but it would be exceedingly difficult to
get the gold out of the shadow. People are as frightened
of their capacity for nobility as of their darkest sides.”
— Owning Your Own Shadow by Robert Johnson
I keep this painting on my studio wall
to remind myself not to let fear hide my gold.
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